The drawing I am posting about today is a true pen and ink, done as a full on black and white.
This is a style that I struggle with, but have always wanted to improve at (more than I was willing to work at it or I would have haha).
It also harkens back to my love of comic strips and especially the drawings of R Crumb whom I was trying really hard to channel while drawing this.
This drawing also dives head first into my exploration of old religions (a constant theme in my art), paganism, and everyone’s favorite, Pan.
It doesn’t matter if you call him Pan, Cernunnos, the Green Man, the Horned God, or Lord of the Wilds; he was of great importance to European culture before the Rise of Rome and then Christianity which of course destroyed and rooted out that culture like it has every other one it has encountered.
At any rate historical geopolitics and religious wars aside, Pan makes an interesting subject, especially when drawing in a woodland bacchanalia with a bunch of naked nymphs dancing around him.
The original of this piece belongs to a dear friend of mine and is no for sale.
Its theme is pretty simple. It is all about feeling like everything about you is being exposed to scrutiny. It doesn’t matter if you are innocent of what is being looked for or not. That invasiveness feels like a spot light.
Or at least it does to me.
The good side of that feeling is it generated an oil painting that I still like and am proud of.
Exposed to the light is an oil on a 20×24 canvas board. I still have the original and would sell it.
Today I am going to talk about a more recent piece I did called Momentum Parvum. (Latin for a small moment)
This drawing is in the Stoic tradition of a Memento Mori which is a reminder that you will die. The purpose of this reminder is to inspire you to not waste a single moment, and to live your life to the fullest.
This image was done using a variety of markers and watercolor brush pens on an 18×24 canvas board.
The original is hanging in my sons room (and introducing this philosophy to him through his attraction to morbid art pleases me immensely) and I don’t believe it is for sale… although it is his, so who knows.
Either way, I have made prints of this painting available at my etsy store in either 8×10 or 5×7.
If you would like to purchase a print, or check out other prints for sale, the shop is named ArtByTSOTA at Etsy.
One of the many attributes you will notice my work bears is that a lot of times it is very cartoony. The reason for that is simple. I love comic strips.
I love the way they look.
I love their social commentary.
I love the personality of the artists that comes through in them.
And I wish it wasn’t a dying art form. (thanks memes, way to kill your parents)
That said, the Sunday funny pages…and the weeklies, along with MAD magazine and Cracked, and comics like Groo the Wanderer; were my first muse and the first things I learned to draw. Everything I do is rooted in simple rounded shapes just like the artists in those sources.
Which brings me to the drawing I am gonna put up today.
“Socializing?” is a pen and ink piece I did after sitting in a bar and noticing that no one looked up from their phones…and this was back in 2009.
You will notice how dated it is by the fact that very few people have full screen phones. Most of them look like blackberries or the old text style phones.
At any rate, this is some of the kinds of stuff that will appear here.
If you have looked around this blog, and you don’t already know me; you have probably wondered what TSOTA means. Well it is an acronym for The Sickest of them ALL.
Like most nicknames it wasn’t chosen by me, but I didn’t shy from it either.
As for the origin, while I generally know the sources, I don’t know the specifics…because they never told me. I do know that it had something to do with the fact that I find a lot of things that other people are grossed out or offended by to be humorous…and because I am a paranoid freak I assume that it wasn’t entirely a compliment. It is not a problem, because I do know myself and frankly I am very comfortable in my weirdo skin. It is when I am in my “stupid human suit” (Still love Donnie Darko, watch it if you haven’t) that I am least comfortable…but I can wear it to make the interactions necessary to live a productive life.
That said, if I keep doing this and you continue to explore my art, you will absolutely find that I live up to the name.
The example of that I am sharing today is entitled “Still would”.
Still would is water based brush pens on bristol. It is not for sale because unfortunately it is on the back of another piece (don’t ask how I managed that), that is very important to its owner. Of course if there is demand, I can arrange to have prints made and I may do that just to get this one out there.
For those of you looking at this and asking “why?”, because its funny.
So like every other nerd who likes to draw, enjoys fantasy writing, and has been known to roll a 20 sided die to see how well I performed a common action…
I will occasionally draw a Dungeons and Dragons monster or scene.
Because I do not have the talent that a real artist friend of mine refers to as “being a human xerox machine”, I do not typically even try to copy images from the Monster Manual or whatever cool compendium the kids are using these days. No, I take ideas from those, with a pinch of what I have come across in fiction, and a dash of the crazy shit that bounces around my brain and make them my own.
The image in that space that I am sharing today is a great example of that.
A great example of this is the drider. For the uninitiated, Driders are Drow elves who serve the Goddess Lolth (Demon queen of spiders). These Drow failed a test of faith to her and were transformed into half spider/half drow elves as punishment.
They are feared and hated by the drow and live solitary lives and are magical menaces that your dungeon master may torment you with anytime you spend a lengthy period in caves or dark forests.
At any rate, what makes them a good example of my bastardization of DnD monster drawings, is that they are almost always drawn as all black with white hair, with armor, and elven facial features.
I had to ditch the all black for two reasons. First, I suck at monochromatic shading. So I avoid it whenever I can. Working on improvement in the background, but I catch myself adding color to things all the time to avoid ruining an image I like. Second, spiders always have some color to them, and the cooler ones are usually super colorful. So I kept it dark, but it needed some color.
I ditched the armor because it wouldn’t fit right and frankly I think it is funny to sexualize gross and scary things. Exposing the tits on an evil and magical spider elf is totally on brand for me.
As for the facial features, elves and drow both are usually portrayed as elegant and beautiful creatures. I figure if Lolth is going to punish a drow with this level of disfigurement, she would go whole hog and give them a spider face. So I went with that.
This was done with water based brush pens, a white gel pen and it is on 9×12 bristol. I have entertained printing this for sale, but it is not going to be in the ARTbyTSOTA etsy shops grand opening. The original, like all things is for sale.
I have several bigfoot designs on my page, and there are sure to be more.
Why? Because I love cryptozoology.
Do I believe in Bigfoot? Kind of, not really. I do hope he is real though.
Mostly I just love that even in todays world people still have the imagination to think about, make up , and convince other people that something is still out the undiscovered.
I mean there is a ton on this planet that we still don’t know about. Not only are thousands of new plants, fungi, insects, and animals discovered every year. There are even still large mammals being discovered, or found surviving after they were believed extinct for decades.
So keep imagining crytpo creatures, keep protecting the environment so we don’t kill a bunch of animals before we even find them, and most importantly.
Today I want to talk a little bit about what is probably the best (skill wise) painting I have done. It is a piece of erotica entitled “Helga S”.
Helga came from my desire to do something intensely erotic without being graphic. After a bit of thought, it occurred to me that the best way to capture that was through a woman’s face in the throws of passion.
Wanting to make the image anonymous, so as not to embarrass anyone who had the poor taste to sleep with me, I did a web search and found what I considered to be a excellent model (which is how I find almost all of my models, although most of them are an amalgamation of several rather than an individual), and started playing with the sketch.
Helga is not the woman’s name and while there is some resemblance, this follows my common theme of not being directly representational. I only focused on capturing her being lost in rapture.
The name is corny, and even cornier when you realize that Helga S is a play on words for hellgasm. Sorry I really am that much of a dork.
This piece is a 20×24 Oil on canvas board. I would love to sell it to you but I gave it to a good friend who I don’t see enough anymore.
Since the last piece touched a bit on mental illness, I figure we can take a look at another one of my oils that has roots in the subject.
The abstract piece in question is titled, “BiPolar: Darkness eating the light”
I want to preface this by saying the number of people around me who are medically diagnosed with some level of Obsessive Compulsive Disorder and Bipolar Disorder has lead me to believe that all of us are somewhere on that spectrum. Some people are better than others at integrating that type of mental function into their lives and some people have brain chemistry that doesn’t allow for it without treatment.
Living close to someone who is on an end of the bipolar spectrum that does not allow any behavioral control mechanisms to work, and is disruptive even when they are medicated (and is anyone with bipolar disorder really ever properly medicated?) can be challenging to say the least.
To watch someone whose inner light shines so brightly part of the time, hide in the very shadows their light creates, and actively work to destroy themselves is emotionally crushing. I can only imagine how it feels to them.
And after living with someone who was severely bipolar for a short while, I did this painting, that I don’t imagine the visuals need much explanation beyond that narrative.
As for the subject of this painting, I hope you are out there doing better. I also hope our culture adopts a better attitude towards mental health. Our current structures and approaches don’t begin to match the challenges people face.
This piece is a 24×12 oil on canvas board. It is for sale, but I have yet to put a price on it as I feel its value to me may be a bit rich.
Like most artists of various stripes, I have favorite subjects.
One of my very favorite things to do is Madonnas.
This is strange for me, because as you will see as this blog fills out and continues on, most of the things I like to draw are weird, non representational, and dark.
Madonnas are also about the only time I draw specific people and to date I have not drawn a non representational Madonna. They are also the most joyous and “light” subjects I draw. So they are a real niche inside of my artistic spectrum.
Currently I have completed 4 Madonnas. I will discuss each under their image.
What makes Lamore d’Madonna interesting and especially endearing to me is the subject of it.
It started out as me working from a black and white picture of my mother holding me. During the process of painting it, some kind of Oedipal lizard brain shit took over and the painting turned into my wife holding my youngest son who was a toddler at the time.
The pose and the dress are so obviously from the image that my mother of course recognized it, an I feel like she was probably offended by the change.
But when I look at it, this painting encompasses everything that a non religious Madonna should. A mothers love for her child. And frankly I don’t think that could be captured better than through a morphing of those two women.
For the technical minded, this is oil paint on 20×30 inch canvas board and while I don’t have great records was somewhere between my 25th and 30th oil attempt.
I am guessing that there are 12-15 of those that you will never see here. If you have self taught with oil, or worked with it you will understand. Some of my of my oils are good, none are great masterpieces, but several of them are terrible.
At any rate, the second Madonna I did is next.
L’Enfant Madonna was one of the last oil paintings I did, is representative of my best technical work with oil, and is one of my very favorite paintings from my work.
The mother is my oldest daughter and her first born. The title reflects that she had this beautiful little girl a teenager.
This oil is also on a 20×30 canvas board.
The third Madonna that I did is a pencil drawing of one of my grandsons being held by his mother.
Madonna Schizzinosa is the accurately named and the image is mainly focused on the look of content that my grandson had in this image.
It is drawn on 9×12 bristol board with water based colored pencils (dry).
The most recent Madonna I have done currently is another favorite.
Premier Sourire de Madonna was a truly precious moment, and I am happy we captured the sheer power of the love between a mother and her son.
This young lady has struggled with depression and anxiety most of her life, and prior to this moment I don’t think we had seen a real smile from her in years.
I can still remember the hope for her I felt when we got to see her come back to life as this little guy joined all of ours.
Don’t get me wrong, babies don’t cure depression and she still struggles. But new life can be extremely inspirational, and in this case it provide a foundation to build a new life on.
This got a little more personal than I intended, but I suppose any honest conversation about ones artwork will do that.
At any rate that is my current body of work with Madonnas. I am sure there will be more as time moves on.
This particular subject is one of the very few that I will accept direct commissions for. Just so we don’t waste each others time. Pricing will be based on the media I am working with at the time and the size of the image desired. Payment will be in advance and there will be no refunds or reworks. If you commission me to paint your Madonna image you will buying my interpretation…not whatever image you thought you wanted.
Currently the best way to contact me will be via Facebook. Facebook.com/rlsii
Eventually I will create and assign an email to this site and endeavor.