An abstract piece

Since the last piece touched a bit on mental illness, I figure we can take a look at another one of my oils that has roots in the subject.

The abstract piece in question is titled, “BiPolar: Darkness eating the light”

BiPolar: Darkness eating the Light

I want to preface this by saying the number of people around me who are medically diagnosed with some level of Obsessive Compulsive Disorder and Bipolar Disorder has lead me to believe that all of us are somewhere on that spectrum. Some people are better than others at integrating that type of mental function into their lives and some people have brain chemistry that doesn’t allow for it without treatment.

Living close to someone who is on an end of the bipolar spectrum that does not allow any behavioral control mechanisms to work, and is disruptive even when they are medicated (and is anyone with bipolar disorder really ever properly medicated?) can be challenging to say the least.

To watch someone whose inner light shines so brightly part of the time, hide in the very shadows their light creates, and actively work to destroy themselves is emotionally crushing. I can only imagine how it feels to them.

And after living with someone who was severely bipolar for a short while, I did this painting, that I don’t imagine the visuals need much explanation beyond that narrative.

As for the subject of this painting, I hope you are out there doing better. I also hope our culture adopts a better attitude towards mental health. Our current structures and approaches don’t begin to match the challenges people face.

This piece is a 24×12 oil on canvas board. It is for sale, but I have yet to put a price on it as I feel its value to me may be a bit rich.

The Madonnas

Like most artists of various stripes, I have favorite subjects.

One of my very favorite things to do is Madonnas.

This is strange for me, because as you will see as this blog fills out and continues on, most of the things I like to draw are weird, non representational, and dark.

Madonnas are also about the only time I draw specific people and to date I have not drawn a non representational Madonna. They are also the most joyous and “light” subjects I draw. So they are a real niche inside of my artistic spectrum.

Currently I have completed 4 Madonnas. I will discuss each under their image.

Lamore d’ Madonna

What makes Lamore d’Madonna interesting and especially endearing to me is the subject of it.

It started out as me working from a black and white picture of my mother holding me. During the process of painting it, some kind of Oedipal lizard brain shit took over and the painting turned into my wife holding my youngest son who was a toddler at the time.

The pose and the dress are so obviously from the image that my mother of course recognized it, an I feel like she was probably offended by the change.

But when I look at it, this painting encompasses everything that a non religious Madonna should. A mothers love for her child. And frankly I don’t think that could be captured better than through a morphing of those two women.

For the technical minded, this is oil paint on 20×30 inch canvas board and while I don’t have great records was somewhere between my 25th and 30th oil attempt.

I am guessing that there are 12-15 of those that you will never see here. If you have self taught with oil, or worked with it you will understand. Some of my of my oils are good, none are great masterpieces, but several of them are terrible.

At any rate, the second Madonna I did is next.

L’Enfant Madonna

L’Enfant Madonna was one of the last oil paintings I did, is representative of my best technical work with oil, and is one of my very favorite paintings from my work.

The mother is my oldest daughter and her first born. The title reflects that she had this beautiful little girl a teenager.

This oil is also on a 20×30 canvas board.

The third Madonna that I did is a pencil drawing of one of my grandsons being held by his mother.

Madonna Schizzinosa

Madonna Schizzinosa is the accurately named and the image is mainly focused on the look of content that my grandson had in this image.

It is drawn on 9×12 bristol board with water based colored pencils (dry).

The most recent Madonna I have done currently is another favorite.

Premier Sourire de Madonna

Premier Sourire de Madonna was a truly precious moment, and I am happy we captured the sheer power of the love between a mother and her son.

This young lady has struggled with depression and anxiety most of her life, and prior to this moment I don’t think we had seen a real smile from her in years.

I can still remember the hope for her I felt when we got to see her come back to life as this little guy joined all of ours.

Don’t get me wrong, babies don’t cure depression and she still struggles. But new life can be extremely inspirational, and in this case it provide a foundation to build a new life on.

This got a little more personal than I intended, but I suppose any honest conversation about ones artwork will do that.

At any rate that is my current body of work with Madonnas. I am sure there will be more as time moves on.

This particular subject is one of the very few that I will accept direct commissions for. Just so we don’t waste each others time. Pricing will be based on the media I am working with at the time and the size of the image desired. Payment will be in advance and there will be no refunds or reworks. If you commission me to paint your Madonna image you will buying my interpretation…not whatever image you thought you wanted.

Currently the best way to contact me will be via Facebook. Facebook.com/rlsii

Eventually I will create and assign an email to this site and endeavor.

Some truthing and a start

So lets start out with some brutal honesty.

The entire purpose of this website is to draw attention to things I create and am trying to sell.

That said, if you poke around here you will get to peek inside my head a bit.

As I write about different things I have created, and where you can acquire them… I am also going to talk a bit about my creative mental process.

The reasons for focusing on that part of the process is two fold.

First. I am an entirely self taught artist. This means that my techniques are “improper” and probably the hard way of doing everything. If you want to learn that, you are just as well to just pick up pens and brushes like I have and go to it.

Second. The mental process behind art is really all that is interesting to me. We all spent time in school listening to some teacher (ranging from dipshit to brilliant educator) tell you what the scholastic view of an art piece and what its meaning is. Being a creative person myself, I am betting most of that is bullshit and highly inaccurate. So I want to talk about what got me from a spark in my cerebral cortex to image on paper.

Which brings us to todays image. A t-shirt I designed named

“Midsommar Sacrifice”

Available at my Tee Public store in multiple colors.

Obviously this image is fan art, which is not something I do a ton of. The thing is though, after watching this movie I was overwhelmed with imagery and had to push some of it out of my head.

So when I got home, I broke out the colored pencils and did this sketch.

A sketch done immediately after watching Midsommar in a theatre.

I was already doing some shirt designs on Tee public, So I redid the image digitally, and put it out there. So far it has been my best selling design.

Since this bit of my whoring myself out involves fan art, I would be remiss if I did not link the film that inspired it.

So here is a link to Ari Aster and A24’s Midsommar.

If you like slow burn horror and movies that make you more than a little bit uncomfortable, you will love this one. It is beautifully shot, and well there has already been a ton written about it. But needless to say I am a fan (of the movie, writer, director, and production company- this is an A+ team).

Anyway that is all I have to say about this shirt design and the website today. Hopefully there will be some social media links added on here at some point.

Go create something!