Early oil work

The painting I am putting up today is one of the first ten or so oils I painted.

The style is undeveloped, and I still had not (not that I ever excelled at it) learned to show depth with color and shadow.

What I did know how to do was conceptually explore my mental state and where I was at a particular time in such a way that just a glance at the image reminds me of where I had arrived.

Discarding Old Idols

This painting is emblematic of part of my personality and personal philosophy that makes most people uncomfortable. It is a traditional oil on a 16×20 stretched canvas.

At an early age I figured out (by rough experience) that the people or things you idolize and/worship are not only seldom worthy of even your adoration, let alone being placed on a pedestal; no, most of them are not even worthy of being in your life.

And once you recognize that they are not, they should be removed. In this case by pushing them far away on a space bridge and then into a giant hell furnace while the moon smiles on.

So make the moon happy, analyze your idols and get rid of the ones that don’t fit. Be careful though, it is addictive and at a certain point purging gets lonely.

Pro-tip for that- there are 9 billion people on the planet, they can’t all suck, and you don’t have to idolize them.

Collective energy

Some of my most emotional paintings and drawings have very little and sometimes nothing to do with me. They are expressions of empathy.

Now don’t get me wrong, I don’t think I am an “empath” or some kind of weird woo woo shit. But I do believe that there is a bit of a collective energy in whatever space you are in.

During the pandemic, I think we all got caught up in a bit of an emotional feedback loop. And it was not overwhelmingly positive.

For me the key to dealing with it was expression. I found ways of burrowing into my mind and channeling whatever I found onto paper. Then end result of that was that I have been as creative in the last year as I have ever been in my life.

The mid range result of that is I created a lot of dark images.

Which brings us to todays work. I saw a lot of people pushed to the breaking point over the last year and that too found its way onto paper…

Shattered 9×12 on Bristol

This piece is done with sharpies, brush pens, and of course a white gel pen.

I have the original and it is for sale for $150.

You can also get a print of “Shattered” in 5×7 or 8×10 at my etsy store.